It’s Been a Big Year – Change is Still the Only Constant
August 25, 2014
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This may be the last blog I post here – the creativity and desire to express myself that I’ve enjoyed since the beginning of this writing adventure have waned. I can’t pinpoint the reason; it may be a loss of belief in myself, the medication, or it may just be time for change. Whatever it is, I just didn’t want my previous post to be the last. In case I don’t come back here for a long time, I want to keep the vibe positive.
So what have I been doing all year? I clearly haven’t been blogging. Let me fill you in…
In 2014 I vowed to change. My driver was the desire to be a better person, physically and mentally. The mental battle has been difficult, but my determination to overcome depression is as strong as ever. I decided to couple the medication option with a physical assault on my sense of self and I have to say, I have had some successes. In the past 7 months I have done a few things I’ve never done before, including:
- Participating in and winning a 9 week challenge at my local gym;
- Completing a corporate triathlon with my employer;
- Enjoying some amateur theater (a pretty decent version of “The Breakfast Club” I might add) with a good friend – making a couple of new friends along the way; and
- Completing the 2014 Tough Mudder obstacle course!
All these new experiences taught me a lot. Getting out of my comfort zone opened my eyes not only to myself, but to the others who I was lucky enough to share these adventures with. I have always thought of myself as an open-minded and relatively non-judgmental person, although I had a few of my mental stereotypes shattered and for that I am extremely grateful.
Change is difficult. Hell, just living is difficult at times. Yet there are people who live in a constant state of change. I had no idea of the extent of this until I actively pursued change. I have slipped, stumbled and fallen flat on my face – physically and emotionally. I’ve only been doing this for 7 months. I’ve been helped along by people whose lives are change.
I know I don’t have the personality to be able to do this for the rest of my life. I NEED order. Routine. Schedules. But these can all incorporate change. Because life should never get stagnant, at least in my opinion. I just want to say a quick and heartfelt thank you to the people who have always been there to help me when I’ve stumbled. People who are with me physically, as well as those of you who have continued to support me from afar because that’s the way our friendship works. I’m glad to have each and every one of you on my side.
Now, if you will excuse me, my next challenge starts in October. I have to start my preparation. I won’t shut this blog down because I hope to return and start writing again. In the meantime, thank you all for reading and commenting.
Look after yourselves.